Frustrating week, Celebratory week, Ill week

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Well I missed my blog entry for last week, mainly due to playing catch up on my CIPS study.  Then managing to catch up I have promptly fallen behind again, because I was too lazy and tired this week to read 10 pages.  It has definitely been a frustrating week, as I try to manage work, study and healing.  My foot as of late as started to look more look a foot then a holy foot.  This in itself is great, however,  looking at how well it is now healing, it would appear that I wont even have a scar for all the pain I have gone through.  Although this is good news there is a sense of disappointment too.

This week was a special week, as it was my husbands birthday on Wednesday and I have been like a kid in a candy store waiting to give him his presents, which naturally he loved.  Today we are having a birthday celebration.  As a result of this I spent most of last night in the kitchen baking a chocolate cake.  Today I am completing it with a butter icing filling and a milk chocolate ganache covering.  It is going to be a small affair with family and a selection of friends but should be a fun-filled afternoon.

As I had to work for his birthday, I took him our for a special meal for his birthday.  We went to an Argentinian Steak House called Gaucho’s, at Canary Wharf.  The food was divine, the service was impeccable and well worth the small fortune we spent on the two of us to dine there.  Meat was cooked to perfection and with a sommelier to help with wine choices or to go with recommended wines, which were also included within the menu.  The whole experience was exactly what one would expect from a full on fine dining experience.  It is one experience we are planning to repeat with tale of two books knowing her love of food and good cooking.  It will also give her some good exposure to writing some food critic reports for her blog.

Despite all this on the Thursday evening I have ended up with a nasty ear infection which is causing pain and broken sleep.  My foot then started to feel left out and started to irritate me again too, however, I wonder with my foot if it was because I was told I could shower.  My dressing started to lift when I came out and if it has been re-infected.  I guess I wont know until I go to the vascular clinic on Tuesday. Nonetheless it has all been a good week.

Looking forward to moving onwards and upwards and an enjoyable if even busy week to come.

 

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What A Week

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In A week where the US have faced horrendous storm blizzards and the UK have been battered by storms and rain.  I look out of my two bedroomed flat and have wondered what all the fuss is about.  That is not to say I am callous and don’t care, but just viewing the maps, as shown how much of an Island where I currently live used to be.

For most areas within 3-30 minutes of walking distance from my flat are covered in water, subject to flooding and interruptions by the storm, my little piece of calm, is standing tall and proud and smiling down saying, rain what rain.

The current flood warning map is proving an interest site to highlight our point.  To show what I mean about us being an island and our higher ground, I think the below image with the flood warning highlight this fact quite well, yet as I go further into London and even where I work which is right on the Times and there is no sign of this destruction or problem

Our plans for this weekend to go see the Lego Movie, has been aborted due to the storms and need to travel, something to look forward to in the coming weeks.

So instead I opted to stay home, order hubbys birthday and anniversary present, and let my Charlisei play on GTA5 which we picked up for a bargain this week on Amazon.

Other than storms and disorder, for once not of my making,  My doctors surgery decided to tell me I am acquiring my own medical team around my foot and its inability to heal properly.  On the plus side I have been told there is no infection in the bones yeah and that it is just taking its time to heal.  There are not sure though if there is permanent nerve damage, so this may require further tests, referrals and investigations for which I am still waiting to hear what the outcome will be.

Until then I will continue to hobble along, manage as best as I can and hope that next week there is not some destruction and chaos about.

Future challenges, back to school and back to work

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Like with every coming New Year I set myself various challenges.  On last year’s front I think it was safe to say that it was as a Craig Revell-Horwood would say a Disaaaster Darling a total disaster.  One positive is that I lost 2 stone then put one back on.  Nonetheless it still going in the right direction.

So fresh out of last years fiascos I have put together a new list of requirements and wishes for this coming year

1) Clear the last remaining balances on my credit cards

2) Get fit

3) Stick to my timetable for my CIPS exam and pass the exams first time

The major challenges here is mainly number 3 as I work a full-time job, travel four hours a day in total getting in and out of work.  I will naturally now use this travel time to equate to reading and studying for the work allowed.  I have quite tight deadlines set for myself with only 10 days to complete each chapter of the course.  With a total of 18 weeks for each section.  In all that sounds fine, but the volume of reading required is something that is going to be left to be desired

Additional nerves  are that I am making my way back into work after nearly 2 months of working from home after an injury sustained whilst on my honeymoon.  Things are getting to get busy and heavy and hectic very soon.

Nonetheless I love challenges and keeping busy so this should stop me from getting idle and bored and not finding that I don’t have things to do.

Oh one other thing I committed to do this year was to get my poems edited and pulled together into a concise book for hubby to review and work on.  So I also made a start on that yesterday too…. so how I feel like I am just looking for trouble here.

Roll on August for holiday time yeah…

Where has the time gone

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Thins over the past few months have passed my be in a blur and I have found I have less and less time to do the things I really want to do.  A lot of this comes out of fatigue.  My current job results in me travelling nearly 4 hours a day on a round trip to get in and out of the office, I could make my life easier by asking to work from home a couple of times a week but realistically I only want to do that when I really have to.  I think more than anything I enjoy going into work, because I enjoy my job.  Recently I passed probation which for us was a major milestone.

Everything seemed to be happening at once, my husbands birthday, our one year anniversary of being married along with passing probation.  Everything after several years of struggle and living frugally was finally all coming together.

We were eventually beginning to see what it looked like to be stable.  A secure job as far as anything is secure in today’s environment of change.  A debt free-living apart from a meagre amount onto a credit card, which recently got transferred to a 0% balance for 9 months option on a lower rate meaning credit rating was improving once more.

Funds towards honeymoon were being paid – not as regularly as I would like but it was still being paid and going down in value which is the important thing.

We now found ourselves thinking about the future and what we wanted.  The prospect in itself was as terrifying as it comes from both a new experience and the ability to plan without having the sensation that it was only a dream.  The though of saving for own home or buying our current place from the landlords seemed like a real possibility.

A rewarding effect of all this happened yesterday when we treated ourselves to our long promised sky subscription on the X-Box allowing us to watch our long waited season 7 of Dexter and in 14 days time the new season of Game of Thrones.

All that aside I need to find the time to do my writing, and although the train journey gives me time, I found I am allowing myself this time to sit and do my reading.  So in the last 2 months along I have gone through about 6 books and about to start my 7th which is great, but I want to keep my blogging going along with my writing and both seem to be suffering at the moment.

However, you know what they say you can’t have it all but one at least must try.  Life is ploughing on and I will continue to improve my regularity of action on my blog page.  Nonetheless if life takes over as I am sure it will with Easter around the corner and double birthdays for my in law parents of 65 and 70 – I am sure I will find myself in a blur of activity once more and look up and found that it is summer and the honey moon is looming.

I wish you well and a good life until next time I get to blog away.

Have fun

1st week over

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Well the first week of the New Year is over and the first three days back in the office have been a mixture of highs and stresses all combined into one.  Although most of the stresses have been a result of other people not handling their work load and then making it my problem.  On the plus side though I have  had one person change their opinion about me and I have lots to do on Monday and not enough hours to do everything in so god knows how that is going to go – oh well must get busy and all that.  Better than say twiddling my thumbs say they so.  Big renewal this month too so really lots to do and conversations to be had.

Aside from that things are ticking along nicely, have started on my get fit regime and since Saturday last week, I have managed to lose 4 lbs already of my weight which is nice lets hope it keeps going, although I am struggling with the amount food I am supposed to eat –  it feels like I am eating loads and I am finding that hard. so may have to adopt a little and often approach to the eating during the day.

Not started my swimming yet at work but will keep going at it and taking the costume in until I get there, and I really should since I have a free gym at work.  It may be when I get fuzzy I then use that as the excuse to go swimming to help clear my head and backing this up with the 1/2 hour dancing I should quickly shed the 3 stone (42 lbs) before November.

Oh yes, I never said did I, we booked our honeymoon on New Years day, to coincide with my birthday this year giving me something to look forward to and enjoy, and hopefully it will be the start to me looking forward to my birthday as opposed to dreading it – fingers crossed.  We have chosen a lovely resort in the Maldives in south Atoll for 14 nights called Chaaya Lagoon Hakuraa Huraa, which includes a water hut so we can look below to see the Indian Ocean everyday, with lots of options for diving too, I found, so I am really excited about that as well.  The chance to dive with barracuda, Reef and white Nosed Reef sharks, doing night dives, caverns and reef is getting  my buzzing almost as much as going on the honeymoon itself.  Unfortunately hubby can’t dive due to perforated eardrums, but have suggested he come out on the boat and bubble watch, where he can relax and watch me under the waves, the water is so clear he should not have any real issues with that.

However, before getting out there I would like to do my refresher course and complete and get to advanced and put some more dives in the log book and maybe buy some fins.  Hubby has already done research on the injections which means I have to go speak with my doctors at some point in March boo I hate my doctors but need must as the devil drives and all that.

Anyway I guess that is enough about me waffling for now, I am going to attempt the daily prompt in a bit so I guess you should see another post from me shortly, otherwise enjoy your day.

Resolutions, Solutions bleh

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It is that time of year now when people starting talking about resolutions and what they want to do next year. Very simply put it is something they are going to be resolute about not falter or fail nor deviate from.  This is what their greatest achievement will be for the year ahead.  The problem with this is that you are setting yourself up to fail.  Some of the things that have inspired me over the last 12 months are other people’s resolutions and how they have been termed.  My favourite has to be the bucket list always fun and lively and about following ideals and having new experiences.

For me this time of year between Christmas and New year ,like many is for reflection on what has passed, have I grown and changed are there things I no longer like about me and want to change if so what is it?  and how?

Do I set up myself up to fail I used to, then I changed my perspective on things and created my yearly wish list.  Why do I say wish list as opposed to resolution, it is because these are the things I wish for myself next year and would like to try to make it  happen.  They are not a  given but there are is also no self recriminations towards myself if I should happen to fail or not achieve my desire or my goal.  It gives me the chance to look at what went wrong and try something new next year in achieving the goal.

Last years wish list was not so grand as in previous years and consisted of two main requests

  1. Get married and make it a day to remember
  2. Find a permanent job

Okay so the first was a given, the date was booked, the venue nearly paid for and this time last year my partner and I were in the final throes of wedding panic as the day drew closer.  For me though I was not sure if my father was going to be there, I was dis-heartened as most of my family had decided I was not worth the effort.  On my wedding day my family attendance consisted of my father and sister.  My aunt and her husband along with her daughter’s family which was her husband and daughter too.  Leading up to the day I was feeling dejected as a result of this and had people dropping out the day before and two no shows on the day which hurt and just told me how rude people are.  Since then I have had people who have cut me out of their life and it has been the wedding which has shown me who my friends are and who are not my friends.  Some I have been sad to lose others I have been so long char-chi have a nice life.  Nonetheless it is always hard to say goodbye to friends even if the latter applies.

Nonetheless, I have had a growing feeling over the last year that my friends are growing more and more transient in nature and that as a friend I am there to heal people and make them feel better and lead them to a better way.  Once this way has been done and they have transgressed forwards and moved forwards it is time to leave me behind for pastures new.  A realisation or a deluded self belief in relation to this has led me to change the way I interact with people, as I can no longer bare the pain of being ‘used’ for want of a better word and then being discarded like an old rag.  I broke the chains with family and ex-partners as a result of this it has taken me a longer lesson to learn with the friends but I am learning.

Don’t get me wrong I wont ever turn my back on a friend but I am not going to consume myself with them and their lives I am going to live and live my life my way and if people want to come along great if not then that is their decision not mine.

The second was far more challenging.  Going into this year I was in a maternity cover role which was due to expire at the end of March, it then got extended until end of May and then until July.  I was hoping this meant that I was going to get a permanent position but no.  This frustrated me, but I had been working on the role not being made permanent, so had already made lots of contacts and had job interviews already lined up, prior to the contract eventually coming to an end.   Unfortunately it then took me another 14 weeks before I was able to find secure work.  However the hard work and the effort applied to the job hunting was worth it – see my blogs in relation to this – there are too numerous to list here.  I now work for an amazing company one that I have wanted to work for since I was at University, doing a job I want to do on a salary that can support both my husband and I comfortably, giving him the time to focus on his writing and doing what he loves without him feeling any pressure that he needs to support and provide in a financial sense.  Nonetheless he is to continue with his part-time work which more than anything as he says keeps him sane in times of madness.

This year I suspect the list may be somewhat longer and more demanding and will include things like

  1. Clear my credit card and keep it clear – always a challenge – usually manage 2 months and then pull it out for big expenses
  2. Go on honeymoon – problem is we don’t know where to go although we have got it down to four locations:  1)Maldives, which was our first choice from day one, 2) Bora Bora,  3)Cancun secondary back up choice based on costs and 4) Cuba
  3. Buy me a new laptop
  4. Buy me a SLR camera
  5. Get fit – a bi-product is losing weight which is the real goal but when I say lose weight I get frustrated lose focus so for me to say get fit it is actually more beneficial in that it gets me active again and I have missed being active ever since prolapsing my discs and not being able to do the things I used to love doing.
  6. Get my husband to finish his book and send to publishers
  7. Be happy and enjoy life
  8. Take my step daughter on holiday somewhere she can get a stamp in her passport
  9. Celebrate our first year wedding anniversary in style
  10. Save for our own place
  11. Pass probation at work – which has curiosity would have it falls on our wedding anniversary weekend woo hoo and celebrate in style
  12. Spend time with friends and family
  13. Get back to my diving
  14. Start dancing again – Ballroom and Latin

Not a lot really and some of it is really materialistic but I think this comes from not being able to have been able to buy anything really for a long time.  This urge will quickly diminish and I will go back to thrifty me. thus enabling some of the other events to happen also like the holidays and house saving etc…

I already feel full of hope and promise moving forwards into the new year and I am excited to face it head on and be ready for whatever comes my way.

So to end this may I wish you all a good, fruitful and productive New Year with lots of joy, happiness and enjoyment with few tears along the way

Happy new year everyone

 

 

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