Daily Prompt: Call Me Ishmael challenge

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Below the Serpents the beds of weeds swayed gently in the changing tide and I wondered if I had arrived too late.  I knew the schedule to see the wallowing mantra ray was a limited one and I feared that as the sun started to set that I may be a little too late.

The Wallowing Mantra was a rare creature, one that many believed were figments of imagination, one made up of myth and lore, but something deep inside told me no.  The creatures usually travelled only in the dusk hours and were found in the warmer climes of the Indian ocean.  Usually living deep beneath the waves and surfacing only during the times of the equinox and even then to see one was rare.

However I had done my research I was armed with an infra-red camera to prevent flash scare and was sat waiting.  I checked my air pressure gauge and I saw I only had 50 bar reading left and knew I should climb to the surface, but I wanted 10 more minutes before I had to ascend, so I sat cross-legged in perfect neutral buoyancy and waited.  Just as I was about to give up a screech pierced my ears, followed by another and another, as the pitch of each scream ascended in volume.  My heart started to pound I knew what that meant, they were coming, they were coming up from the depths.

I checked my gage again, now there was only 35 bar and I really had to go but this was too good to miss.  My heart started to pound as the adrenaline pumped through my body but I knew that this was not good for my air consumption and then before I knew it right in front of my face was the most streamlined, silver-grey mantis I have ever seen. We both just sat and looked at each other, assessing the danger, I slowly raised my camera and snapped, then 20-30 more floated up around him, I snapped more and I could not believe my luck and they all just sat there looking at me.

I did not know what to do, I knew my air was diminishing but I did not want to lose this moment and in a flash they pushed up and over my body, a full shoal of Weeping Mantra swim straight over me, I pictured them as they went by amazed to have seen so many of them but pleased I had the patience to wait. As the last of the rays swam over my head, I noticed that my Oxygen had diminished and the intake was less, I had to use my reserve air in my lungs to take me to the surface in a controlled burst.

Applying my earlier training, and snapping a glo-stick, which I had in my belt,  I swam a slow and controlled ascent to the surface allowing small amounts of air to escape with every kick.  As I broke through the water surface, I suddenly felt exhausted, I directed my attention to the captain of my dive boat and gave him the thumbs up, as he came to the back of the boat to take my BCD, and camera before allowing me to climb aboard.  Once aboard I garbled in excited fervour about the shoal and the experience and then went straight to the on-board computer to load up the prints.

The disc was empty.  That was impossible I knew the shots had taken as I remember looking at them when under the water, I was now nearly crying hysterical at the lost data.  It was there I knew it was there so why could I not find it.  The captain tried to calm me explaining I had been down there a long time, I had used all my oxygen perhaps I had hallucinated.

“I think we need to get you to the local doctors for a once over” he said.

“I am OK” I snapped back, which did little to help my argument so I conceded to his request and once we landed I was taken to the local dive centre hospital for a once over.

They decided to keep me in for observation but could see no long-term effects or any nitrogen narcosis setting in.  I was discharged two days later when no lasting effects appeared to be showing and I seemed to have returned to my normal self.  Upon my discharge and along with my certificate I went straight to the centre to track down the captain to see if they had any joy in finding the photos.  I was told they had not, I was not sure if I believed them and they were convinced I had hallucinated the whole thing.  I knew I had not but I could not prove what I had seen so once again, the Weeping Mantra would be returned to myth and lore at last for now at least.

1st week over

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Well the first week of the New Year is over and the first three days back in the office have been a mixture of highs and stresses all combined into one.  Although most of the stresses have been a result of other people not handling their work load and then making it my problem.  On the plus side though I have  had one person change their opinion about me and I have lots to do on Monday and not enough hours to do everything in so god knows how that is going to go – oh well must get busy and all that.  Better than say twiddling my thumbs say they so.  Big renewal this month too so really lots to do and conversations to be had.

Aside from that things are ticking along nicely, have started on my get fit regime and since Saturday last week, I have managed to lose 4 lbs already of my weight which is nice lets hope it keeps going, although I am struggling with the amount food I am supposed to eat –  it feels like I am eating loads and I am finding that hard. so may have to adopt a little and often approach to the eating during the day.

Not started my swimming yet at work but will keep going at it and taking the costume in until I get there, and I really should since I have a free gym at work.  It may be when I get fuzzy I then use that as the excuse to go swimming to help clear my head and backing this up with the 1/2 hour dancing I should quickly shed the 3 stone (42 lbs) before November.

Oh yes, I never said did I, we booked our honeymoon on New Years day, to coincide with my birthday this year giving me something to look forward to and enjoy, and hopefully it will be the start to me looking forward to my birthday as opposed to dreading it – fingers crossed.  We have chosen a lovely resort in the Maldives in south Atoll for 14 nights called Chaaya Lagoon Hakuraa Huraa, which includes a water hut so we can look below to see the Indian Ocean everyday, with lots of options for diving too, I found, so I am really excited about that as well.  The chance to dive with barracuda, Reef and white Nosed Reef sharks, doing night dives, caverns and reef is getting  my buzzing almost as much as going on the honeymoon itself.  Unfortunately hubby can’t dive due to perforated eardrums, but have suggested he come out on the boat and bubble watch, where he can relax and watch me under the waves, the water is so clear he should not have any real issues with that.

However, before getting out there I would like to do my refresher course and complete and get to advanced and put some more dives in the log book and maybe buy some fins.  Hubby has already done research on the injections which means I have to go speak with my doctors at some point in March boo I hate my doctors but need must as the devil drives and all that.

Anyway I guess that is enough about me waffling for now, I am going to attempt the daily prompt in a bit so I guess you should see another post from me shortly, otherwise enjoy your day.

Resolutions, Solutions bleh

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It is that time of year now when people starting talking about resolutions and what they want to do next year. Very simply put it is something they are going to be resolute about not falter or fail nor deviate from.  This is what their greatest achievement will be for the year ahead.  The problem with this is that you are setting yourself up to fail.  Some of the things that have inspired me over the last 12 months are other people’s resolutions and how they have been termed.  My favourite has to be the bucket list always fun and lively and about following ideals and having new experiences.

For me this time of year between Christmas and New year ,like many is for reflection on what has passed, have I grown and changed are there things I no longer like about me and want to change if so what is it?  and how?

Do I set up myself up to fail I used to, then I changed my perspective on things and created my yearly wish list.  Why do I say wish list as opposed to resolution, it is because these are the things I wish for myself next year and would like to try to make it  happen.  They are not a  given but there are is also no self recriminations towards myself if I should happen to fail or not achieve my desire or my goal.  It gives me the chance to look at what went wrong and try something new next year in achieving the goal.

Last years wish list was not so grand as in previous years and consisted of two main requests

  1. Get married and make it a day to remember
  2. Find a permanent job

Okay so the first was a given, the date was booked, the venue nearly paid for and this time last year my partner and I were in the final throes of wedding panic as the day drew closer.  For me though I was not sure if my father was going to be there, I was dis-heartened as most of my family had decided I was not worth the effort.  On my wedding day my family attendance consisted of my father and sister.  My aunt and her husband along with her daughter’s family which was her husband and daughter too.  Leading up to the day I was feeling dejected as a result of this and had people dropping out the day before and two no shows on the day which hurt and just told me how rude people are.  Since then I have had people who have cut me out of their life and it has been the wedding which has shown me who my friends are and who are not my friends.  Some I have been sad to lose others I have been so long char-chi have a nice life.  Nonetheless it is always hard to say goodbye to friends even if the latter applies.

Nonetheless, I have had a growing feeling over the last year that my friends are growing more and more transient in nature and that as a friend I am there to heal people and make them feel better and lead them to a better way.  Once this way has been done and they have transgressed forwards and moved forwards it is time to leave me behind for pastures new.  A realisation or a deluded self belief in relation to this has led me to change the way I interact with people, as I can no longer bare the pain of being ‘used’ for want of a better word and then being discarded like an old rag.  I broke the chains with family and ex-partners as a result of this it has taken me a longer lesson to learn with the friends but I am learning.

Don’t get me wrong I wont ever turn my back on a friend but I am not going to consume myself with them and their lives I am going to live and live my life my way and if people want to come along great if not then that is their decision not mine.

The second was far more challenging.  Going into this year I was in a maternity cover role which was due to expire at the end of March, it then got extended until end of May and then until July.  I was hoping this meant that I was going to get a permanent position but no.  This frustrated me, but I had been working on the role not being made permanent, so had already made lots of contacts and had job interviews already lined up, prior to the contract eventually coming to an end.   Unfortunately it then took me another 14 weeks before I was able to find secure work.  However the hard work and the effort applied to the job hunting was worth it – see my blogs in relation to this – there are too numerous to list here.  I now work for an amazing company one that I have wanted to work for since I was at University, doing a job I want to do on a salary that can support both my husband and I comfortably, giving him the time to focus on his writing and doing what he loves without him feeling any pressure that he needs to support and provide in a financial sense.  Nonetheless he is to continue with his part-time work which more than anything as he says keeps him sane in times of madness.

This year I suspect the list may be somewhat longer and more demanding and will include things like

  1. Clear my credit card and keep it clear – always a challenge – usually manage 2 months and then pull it out for big expenses
  2. Go on honeymoon – problem is we don’t know where to go although we have got it down to four locations:  1)Maldives, which was our first choice from day one, 2) Bora Bora,  3)Cancun secondary back up choice based on costs and 4) Cuba
  3. Buy me a new laptop
  4. Buy me a SLR camera
  5. Get fit – a bi-product is losing weight which is the real goal but when I say lose weight I get frustrated lose focus so for me to say get fit it is actually more beneficial in that it gets me active again and I have missed being active ever since prolapsing my discs and not being able to do the things I used to love doing.
  6. Get my husband to finish his book and send to publishers
  7. Be happy and enjoy life
  8. Take my step daughter on holiday somewhere she can get a stamp in her passport
  9. Celebrate our first year wedding anniversary in style
  10. Save for our own place
  11. Pass probation at work – which has curiosity would have it falls on our wedding anniversary weekend woo hoo and celebrate in style
  12. Spend time with friends and family
  13. Get back to my diving
  14. Start dancing again – Ballroom and Latin

Not a lot really and some of it is really materialistic but I think this comes from not being able to have been able to buy anything really for a long time.  This urge will quickly diminish and I will go back to thrifty me. thus enabling some of the other events to happen also like the holidays and house saving etc…

I already feel full of hope and promise moving forwards into the new year and I am excited to face it head on and be ready for whatever comes my way.

So to end this may I wish you all a good, fruitful and productive New Year with lots of joy, happiness and enjoyment with few tears along the way

Happy new year everyone

 

 

Motivation where are you

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Today I am de-focussed, have a real sense of a lack of interest and really cannot be bothered day.

I have completed my job searching for the day, and even do some external searches on sites I don’t usually use.  The results were only slightly productive in that a role for a company I would love to work for turned up.  Although the position is below my current level and capacity, I am taking it as a way into the company and then work up.  Hopefully the salary wont be so low that it is untenable.  However, I have also had to prepare for yet another telephone interview today for a temp to permanent role, with life starting as a FTC (Fixed Term Contract).  A notion which does not fill me with joy but if it puts coffers in the bank who am I to complain is the honest answer.

At the moment, my mind feels a jumbled mess and is thinking of so much and yet I don’t know where to start, and so to help with that my get up and go is decided to sleek itself into a tiny recess until it has decided it is safe to come back out and play again.  Hruummmph not great but it just means trying to find the very element of getting myself going is proving more difficult than usual.  I also feel like I am starting to lose focus on what I want to achieve, and am going through the motions without actually achieving anything of any real consequence at the moment.  So if anyone has any ideas on how to re-instigate the focus and desire, feedback would be helpful.

I am kinda feeling a little bit lost in the world at the moment as if someone has taken down all my signposts and I am supposed to find the way by my memory.  As fun as that is, at the moment some signposts would be good I think just at the moment, to help confirm that I am on the right track.  Don’t want to be wandering down some dark dingy alleyway when I don’t have to… if you get my meaning.  However on the other side of things I thought I would update my PIN Interest site and update with some pictures that I wanted to upload.  There were a few there that I had totally forgotten about and also reminded me how beautiful some things are.

Turkey

Blue

No that is not a swimming pool with fish in it, that is how blue the water is in Fethiye in Turkey.  It made me smile and remember how cool it was compared to how hot it was outside.  I just loved the reflections of the sub, the images of the fish swimming about, along with the gentle ripples of the water.  This is one of my favourite pictures from that holiday in Turkey.  It is also the place I fell in love with Scuba Diving.  The image above is also the place where I dived for the first time, doing a try dive and also getting seriously hooked on the sport.

Try Dive

3M. down 1st dive ever

 

The whole experience was just out of this world.  Right I must go, my telephone interviewer is now 11 minutes late….. not impressed.  If there has been no call within the hour I will be speaking to the recruitment agent about this !!!!!

Enjoy your day and any suggestions for getting my MOJO back would be appreciative