Resolutions, Solutions bleh

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It is that time of year now when people starting talking about resolutions and what they want to do next year. Very simply put it is something they are going to be resolute about not falter or fail nor deviate from.  This is what their greatest achievement will be for the year ahead.  The problem with this is that you are setting yourself up to fail.  Some of the things that have inspired me over the last 12 months are other people’s resolutions and how they have been termed.  My favourite has to be the bucket list always fun and lively and about following ideals and having new experiences.

For me this time of year between Christmas and New year ,like many is for reflection on what has passed, have I grown and changed are there things I no longer like about me and want to change if so what is it?  and how?

Do I set up myself up to fail I used to, then I changed my perspective on things and created my yearly wish list.  Why do I say wish list as opposed to resolution, it is because these are the things I wish for myself next year and would like to try to make it  happen.  They are not a  given but there are is also no self recriminations towards myself if I should happen to fail or not achieve my desire or my goal.  It gives me the chance to look at what went wrong and try something new next year in achieving the goal.

Last years wish list was not so grand as in previous years and consisted of two main requests

  1. Get married and make it a day to remember
  2. Find a permanent job

Okay so the first was a given, the date was booked, the venue nearly paid for and this time last year my partner and I were in the final throes of wedding panic as the day drew closer.  For me though I was not sure if my father was going to be there, I was dis-heartened as most of my family had decided I was not worth the effort.  On my wedding day my family attendance consisted of my father and sister.  My aunt and her husband along with her daughter’s family which was her husband and daughter too.  Leading up to the day I was feeling dejected as a result of this and had people dropping out the day before and two no shows on the day which hurt and just told me how rude people are.  Since then I have had people who have cut me out of their life and it has been the wedding which has shown me who my friends are and who are not my friends.  Some I have been sad to lose others I have been so long char-chi have a nice life.  Nonetheless it is always hard to say goodbye to friends even if the latter applies.

Nonetheless, I have had a growing feeling over the last year that my friends are growing more and more transient in nature and that as a friend I am there to heal people and make them feel better and lead them to a better way.  Once this way has been done and they have transgressed forwards and moved forwards it is time to leave me behind for pastures new.  A realisation or a deluded self belief in relation to this has led me to change the way I interact with people, as I can no longer bare the pain of being ‘used’ for want of a better word and then being discarded like an old rag.  I broke the chains with family and ex-partners as a result of this it has taken me a longer lesson to learn with the friends but I am learning.

Don’t get me wrong I wont ever turn my back on a friend but I am not going to consume myself with them and their lives I am going to live and live my life my way and if people want to come along great if not then that is their decision not mine.

The second was far more challenging.  Going into this year I was in a maternity cover role which was due to expire at the end of March, it then got extended until end of May and then until July.  I was hoping this meant that I was going to get a permanent position but no.  This frustrated me, but I had been working on the role not being made permanent, so had already made lots of contacts and had job interviews already lined up, prior to the contract eventually coming to an end.   Unfortunately it then took me another 14 weeks before I was able to find secure work.  However the hard work and the effort applied to the job hunting was worth it – see my blogs in relation to this – there are too numerous to list here.  I now work for an amazing company one that I have wanted to work for since I was at University, doing a job I want to do on a salary that can support both my husband and I comfortably, giving him the time to focus on his writing and doing what he loves without him feeling any pressure that he needs to support and provide in a financial sense.  Nonetheless he is to continue with his part-time work which more than anything as he says keeps him sane in times of madness.

This year I suspect the list may be somewhat longer and more demanding and will include things like

  1. Clear my credit card and keep it clear – always a challenge – usually manage 2 months and then pull it out for big expenses
  2. Go on honeymoon – problem is we don’t know where to go although we have got it down to four locations:  1)Maldives, which was our first choice from day one, 2) Bora Bora,  3)Cancun secondary back up choice based on costs and 4) Cuba
  3. Buy me a new laptop
  4. Buy me a SLR camera
  5. Get fit – a bi-product is losing weight which is the real goal but when I say lose weight I get frustrated lose focus so for me to say get fit it is actually more beneficial in that it gets me active again and I have missed being active ever since prolapsing my discs and not being able to do the things I used to love doing.
  6. Get my husband to finish his book and send to publishers
  7. Be happy and enjoy life
  8. Take my step daughter on holiday somewhere she can get a stamp in her passport
  9. Celebrate our first year wedding anniversary in style
  10. Save for our own place
  11. Pass probation at work – which has curiosity would have it falls on our wedding anniversary weekend woo hoo and celebrate in style
  12. Spend time with friends and family
  13. Get back to my diving
  14. Start dancing again – Ballroom and Latin

Not a lot really and some of it is really materialistic but I think this comes from not being able to have been able to buy anything really for a long time.  This urge will quickly diminish and I will go back to thrifty me. thus enabling some of the other events to happen also like the holidays and house saving etc…

I already feel full of hope and promise moving forwards into the new year and I am excited to face it head on and be ready for whatever comes my way.

So to end this may I wish you all a good, fruitful and productive New Year with lots of joy, happiness and enjoyment with few tears along the way

Happy new year everyone

 

 

Weekly Photo Challenge: Green

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To save you from lots of words today, and besides I don’t think I can write much more yet, as I am currently in the process fo typing up the 14 pages of notes I wrote this morning from NANO and my brain is still buzzing with the next section.  So I am hoping to make this short and sweet
So here is my brief collection into the photo challenge of Green

Notting Hill 2007

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Fribourg Walkabout

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Weekly Photo Challenge Green

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Busy busy bee

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The last 48 hours can only be described as manic from my end.  Everything has changed from the last time I have written an full blog entry, but it has all been for the better.

Checking my emails and statistics for her I noted that Terry 1954 had kindly nominated me for a sister hood of the world blogger award, which I feel very humbled by.  As anyone who reds my blog on a regular basis will know that I have the utmost respect for this women, and she is an inspiration to us all.  My thoughts in relation to her can be found at my entry Thanks for doing your jobs, as a result of this a nomination coming from her means a lot to me and I feel very humbled by it.

Even more than this, on Tuesday I got the news I have been waiting for, I have secured a permanent position and job at the company I was hoping to be able to work, but was not sure if I would be quite the right fit, as my experience was a little below what they needed.  However, I obviously did something right, as they offered my the role and I start a week on Monday.  I am so excited by the opportunity and chance to work with this company that I spent most of the last 48 hours in shock and shaking and giggling hysterically as a result of this.  Too many this may seem like an over-reaction, however to put it into context, I have wanted to work for this company since before I left University which is a miserly 15 years ago, but have never had neither the confidence or skills set to apply for a role until now.  The chance is also a real chance to get my career well and truly off the ground within a specialised defined space and grow.  I am so looking forward to the challenges and the opportunities that this role will bring, I am counting the days until I start.  So what is the name of this company that has got me so excited, well that would be Thomson Reuters, one of the biggest Media Moguls and suppliers of information in the world.

My new line manager seems lovely and we have already had a couple of e-mail conversations including inviting me to the works Christmas party in 4 weeks time.  Everything about this role, this company makes me feel all warm and lovely inside, and I just cannot wait to start.

Then to back all this up I managed to surpass eventually my total from last year at Nanowrimo.  My new target is to write another  4k to break the 10k barrier

All of a sudden I feel like I have a spring back in my step, the world seems brighter even if it is colder.  However the best thing about all this is that the dreams my partner and I have can now start to turn into realities.  More importantly we can look at booking our honeymoon, from our wedding earlier on in the year from March.  In all honesty this is not likely to take place until next year, and possible around our one year anniversary – but what a way to celebrate.

Anyway enough of my bounciness, if I want to break that  10k barrier I need to get writing as it is not going to break itself

Catch up with you all soon.

Love you all and thanks for all your support

x

 

Renewal

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This weeks weekly photo challenge is all about renewal.  Renewal is as a notion  just about as a varied as a word, and inter-changeable as a word as few rarely are.  Covering the ideas, of re-birth, anew, to start again, injection of funds to re-develop or redeploy an existing idea or plan.  The notions on these photo images are plenty.
Below are my submissions to notion of renewal

Weekly photo Challenge Re-Newal

Re-birth

Weekly Photo Challenge: Renewal

Re-budding

Weekly Photo Challenge: Renewal

Re-Flowering

Weekly Photo Challenge: Renewal

Lone Daffodil

Weekly Photo Challenge- Renewal

Renewal of Love

Renewal- Weekly Photo Challenge

Renewal of Faith

Hope you enjoy the pictures.  Will be back with more hopefully tomorrow x

Birthday Weekend celebrations

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As many of you already know who follow me regularly this weekend was my birthday, but I have been nursing a horrible cold and so was not up to much.  Despite it also being a constant reminder of it being the day I saw my mum for the last time before she died, I did not want to go partying.  However,I had something to smile about this year as 8 months ago to the day I married my husband at Rowton Castle in Shrewsbury, near the Welsh borders.  An amazing venue, great staff and excellent  customer service and value for money.

However, my birthday also falls around one of the biggest events in the UK Calender, Bonfire night.  For those of you who are not familiar with the event, I have copied  the poem , which most people know of in England which tells us of what the event is to do with.

 

Remember remember the fifth of November
Gunpowder, treason and plot.
I see no reason why gunpowder, treason
Should ever be forgot…

The man behind this event was named Guy Fawkes and there are still debates if he was a failed revolutionary, a terrorist or just a fanatic.  Whatever he was, he was punished for his crimes by being hung, drawn and then quartered.  Which in iteself is not a particularly pleasant end to anyones life.

However I thought I would upload some of the pictures and video footage I took last night for everyone to enjoy

 

Have a pleasant Sunday I am now off to prep for my interview tomorrow

Kempton 2012

Bonfire Night

 

Kempton 2012

03/11/2012

 

Bonfire Night

Kempton Park 2012

 

Kempton 2012

Bonfire Night

 

 

Kempton Display 2012

Bonfire Night

 

Bonfire Night 2012

Kempton Park Display

 

 

 

 

Confusion ensued

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Rain rattled the windows as the glass shook in their frames.  My head sunk lower into my over sized chest and unlike Shakira they could be mistaken for mountains.  I reached out for the prescribed sunglasses on the top of the bed side tables and swapped them out for my regular glasses.  I closed the curtains and sank deeper undo the duvet.

This was how my day started.  The intrepid beginnings of a headache from hell – yet again- thank you air pressure.  I reached out for some Solpadeine as I retched over the toilet bowl and my day did not get better,

My mood was lightened close to 1935 GMT as the head started to clear and I managed to review my stats for yesterdays blog and was surprised to see that I surpassed the 25 mark for the first time in a while.  My next aim is 30. Although to be fair I did hit a misnomer 40 sometime back in 2009 when I blogged about my forthcoming wedding.  But then I think weddings produce a fever that can very rarely be replicated. However one of the moments that made my day yesterday so memorable was a lovely comment I received from another blogger my dear bakes, who obviously bakes cakes for a living- deemed my little muffins worthy of a comment – thank you I feel flattered.

My partner on the other hand had great joy in telling me he achieved he had reached 70.  Not that everything is a competition with us but we do like to keep each other on our toes.  It is our way of keeping things fresh and exciting. It is very off but I still have not quite adjusted to calling him my husband as somehow in my mind this seems our of kilter and unbalanced.  Don’t ask me why it just does.  Maybe it is because I see us a partnership and of equal balance which is why I refer to him as so.

Tomorrow we are off to my sister in laws house armed with the minted chocolate fondue muffins that I put up the recipe for yesterday, and potentially depending on when both myself and Lottie Sandstorm arise I may drizzle a small portion of melted dark chocolate across the top.

Miss Sandstorm at this very moment is making her way back to the UK after a day out at Flanders. I am looking forward to hearing about the exploits and what has taken place, before dressing up tomorrow for a Pre-Halloween party.

We are also eagerly awaiting to hear if she has been successful picked to participate in one of 3 weekend events at Imperial College London on an Engineering weekend.  To be selected for this stage is already a great achievement as only 10 girls for her school have been nominated.  I feel extremely proud to know her.  She is a very astute and intelligent young woman, with great poise and wit, and intelligence beyond her years.

In addition to this I have promised to send a batch of the minted muffins to a friend back in Hull so I suspect baking fever will take hold of the household on Sunday as I get Lottie to assist if she is willing and pending on the dreaded Homework- which seems to be taking on greater fever as she heads into her GCSE years.

Timothy is currently in the kitchen prepping dinner which is his usually extremely yummy Lasagne- yum yum yum.  I am sure he will post an image of this up later along with the recipe.

Anyway to go back to the topic in hand I was amused to see that someone was directed to my blog today who was looking for articles on Anemia and I spent nearly an hour trying to work out how Anemia had fitted into any of my blogs, when my darling other half piped-up B12 deficiency.  Ah yes was my response and then oh right.  How random I had totally forgotten about that.  Especially since he is now on Folic acid daily to help with this issue and having had a change of medication from his Byetta to Bydureon. (For more information on these drugs and how they work, please visit Tim Maidments’ site). A similar make-up to the Byetta but only now has to inject once a week rather than twice a day, which for a man with a fear of needles is nice.  Even if he does repeatedly tell me how much bigger the needle is- and no that is not a euphemism for anything else at all.

However on that note and to stop my waffle going into anything more non-cohesive than it already is I wish you a good evening. A merry weekend and images of costumes and get together will follow shortly

Wedding Update

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For those of you who follow my updates on FB, you will knwo that plans for our wedding is going well, and merging this with my partners brother later this year budgets are going decidedly well thank goodness

Updates on Partners brothers’ wedding in that venue for sleep for Friday and Saturday night are now sorted – woo hoo and we dont have to pay for that or deposit it until we arrive on the Friday night – which incidentally is my own parents Wedding anniversary.  I am still in the hunt for a new frock for this event, but nothing that has been cost effective or particularly nice to worth the buy so the hunt continues.

However we have budgeted and purchased wedding presents; woo hoo so one wedding down two to go- ours and my cousins.  Still awaiting confirmation on when the re-scheduled date is

On our wedding front- we have the venue booked and deposit paid for.  Invites are mostly prepared except for the last section which is the front cover and these will be getting done shortly and then ready for postage.  Table design – name places have been set up and sorted and approved so these will be getting put together soon and placed in the wedding boc for transportation to the event.  Table decorations bought and all done up except one, need a little bit more of the sticky mini bling to go onto it and then done.  Although my step-daughter came up with a great idea for the other two of wrapping Teal ribbon around the stem or bowing them to break up the colour intensity of the Ivory on the day.  We also have a fire stack holder of Tee-lights in Ivory too for on top of the fire place.  So they are all just about done woo hoo.

Wedding dress, shoes, veil and Tiara bought and is in shop ready for fitting so appropriate underwear purchased yesterday to organise the required fitting.  Bridesmaids dresses, shoes and hair wear all bought too – their arrival will be in June

Suit for Groom bought along with Cravats with father of the bride, ushers and best man

Wedding insurance bought

Rings bought

Registrar booked – await absolut to give notice.

Favours are still needed and under debate as to whether we can afford them or not.  Flowers for myself and the maids – we may travel back to where we bought the table decorations as they did some nice artificial bouquets for a good price and then merge mine with other options of flowers but again open for discussion at the moment.  Photography is just something we cannot afford and so unless a miracle happens we will not be having one, but instead we will use that of the everyone who turned up for the day and use their images to make albumns to send out as thank yous’ etc.  Thank you gifts again open pending on costs and affordability of being able to do so.  Cars for travel between ceremony and venue not needed as all in one place yippee.  Wedding cake- I am baking muffins and wedding mffins specifically for those who want them to take down with me the day before

Hen and Stag do – god knows what is happening here at the moment it may be not going to happen affair but we shall see all in all.  Maybe a miracle will arrive and both my partner and I will secure a job which will enable us to get all the little things that we are unsure about at the moment.

But ultimately I am pleased to report all is going well, within budget and is not costing us massive amounts, it is hoped that everything will come in just under the £10k mark.  Here is hoping.

Enjoy the rest of your Wednesday and a further update will be coming your way in the next month or so

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